I made 3 days this week without bping. Yesterday was a whirlwind of emotions. I woke up and from the minute I did my mood was weak. I felt bad for putting R through it but I guess the truth is, if he chose to stay with me yesterday when I offered to go home bc of my mood, it is his choice. It was a nice day though. We were out and about and then at night went out with some friends. I was so bloated/distended and was miserable. My legs were bulging out of my jeans and I just need to not wear jeans for a while. Anyway, although it was fun, I lost a chunk of time. I lost a big chunk of time because I ate sweet potato fries and Ill admit, in the way I ate them, it was bingy. It was not a binge however. I went to the bathroom to purge, and it would have been the first time around him and I couldnt do it. I was so nervous and felt so guilty so I didnt. Im really struggling with my body at the moment. I think Im going to go out and get some dresses for this spring/summer so while I am adjusting again, I dont have to worry about jeans.